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2005-11-05 [wolfdreamer]: yes you should believe me cause its only the thruth i'm telling lol

2005-11-05 [*cuddles*]: ok

2005-11-05 [wolfdreamer]: hmm i have to find sth to get you to talk

2005-11-05 [*cuddles*]: mhm

2005-11-05 [wolfdreamer]: lets see.....oh yeah i think we will know by next friday when the guys will be here in february

2005-11-05 [*cuddles*]: cool ...

2005-11-05 [wolfdreamer]: you could say a little bit more

2005-11-05 [*cuddles*]: sorry it`s just - what should i say ... ?

2005-11-05 [wolfdreamer]: i don't know....something.....anything.....doesn't matte5

2005-11-05 [*cuddles*]: i think it`s really cool they`re coming and it`s cool we`ll know when ...

2005-11-05 [*cuddles*]: i have to do sth !

2005-11-05 [wolfdreamer]: do you mean babysitting?

2005-11-05 [*cuddles*]: no i mean do sth with myself - i think - in the way of changing sth ... you know what i mean ?

2005-11-05 [wolfdreamer]: hmmm well you already changed sth...you are a vegeterian now

2005-11-05 [*cuddles*]: hmmm - not that way...

2005-11-05 [wolfdreamer]: oh which way do you want to change then?

2005-11-05 [*cuddles*]: well i am not all right with myself ... don`t know how to change ...

2005-11-05 [*cuddles*]: you know - i always feel uncomfortable ...

2005-11-05 [wolfdreamer]: maybe its just because we have almost the same every day or where you live

2005-11-05 [*cuddles*]: now it`s cause i allways think i am allone ...

2005-11-05 [wolfdreamer]: you are not alone, you have me and chris and craig...

2005-11-05 [*cuddles*]: yes i know - but i can`t help it -i feel like that

2005-11-05 [wolfdreamer]: hmm, i can't do much more then tell you that you are not and be there for you

2005-11-05 [*cuddles*]: yeah - you don`t have to do anything more - i have to - that is what i meant with changing...

2005-11-05 [wolfdreamer]: ok

2005-11-05 [*cuddles*]: *sighs*

2005-11-05 [wolfdreamer]: why are you sighing?

2005-11-05 [*cuddles*]: hmmm cause this all is ... dunno - makes me sigh ...

2005-11-05 [wolfdreamer]: ok

2005-11-05 [*cuddles*]: hmmmmm

2005-11-05 [wolfdreamer]: hehe

2005-11-05 [*cuddles*]: huh?

2005-11-05 [wolfdreamer]: nothing i'm just being tired

2005-11-05 [*cuddles*]: hmmmm

2005-11-05 [Shooting Star Shadow]: alright

2005-11-05 [*cuddles*]: hmmm

2005-11-06 [Amish Hammer]: hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

2005-11-06 [Shooting Star Shadow]: what ya thinking about

2005-11-06 [EmeraldGrizzly]: Who know's wit em'

2005-11-06 [Shooting Star Shadow]: never know truely

2005-11-06 [wolfdreamer]: ok new rule...no more hmmmm in here

2005-11-06 [Shooting Star Shadow]: hmmmm

2005-11-06 [wolfdreamer]: stop it

2005-11-06 [EmeraldGrizzly]: hmmmm-just kidding

2005-11-06 [wolfdreamer]: haha you guys are so NOT funny

2005-11-06 [EmeraldGrizzly]: uhuh, damn right we aren't mmmmmmmmmm cambel chicken soup

2005-11-06 [Shooting Star Shadow]: hehehe gesh you are psycho

2005-11-06 [EmeraldGrizzly]: Not really

2005-11-06 [Amish Hammer]: awww come on, hmmm is like, the coolest

2005-11-07 [Shooting Star Shadow]: hehe

2005-11-07 [wolfdreamer]: guys i'm gonna throw you out of here if you don't stop. i really can't hear that word anymore. and right now i'm not in the mood to discuss things and its not good to provoke me.

2005-11-07 [LiKeaNaDDiCt]: aww wolfy what is problem in here ?

2005-11-07 [wolfdreamer]: i'm having a bad time

2005-11-07 [LiKeaNaDDiCt]: sorry for you.. if i can do something please tell me

2005-11-07 [wolfdreamer]: thanks, but i don't think you can

2005-11-07 [LiKeaNaDDiCt]: LoL ok i m going out see you later byee

2005-11-07 [Shooting Star Shadow]: steffi are you going to be alright

2005-11-07 [Amish Hammer]: i sry steffi, didn't kno it was a sensative word. come to think of it, i didn't kno it was a word. but i digress, sry again and i'm always here hun.

2005-11-07 [Shooting Star Shadow]: i don't believe it is a word and im sorry bout pushing ya sis

2005-11-07 [wolfdreamer]: its not really a word but who cares....yeah i'm gonna be fine

2005-11-07 [Shooting Star Shadow]: yeah who cares and that is good

2005-11-08 [*cuddles*]: hello ?!

2005-11-08 [wolfdreamer]: hi

2005-11-08 [*cuddles*]: think chris did a mistake...

2005-11-08 [wolfdreamer]: why do you think that?

2005-11-08 [*cuddles*]: he asked to change the relation into "family" - didn`t get that ....

2005-11-08 [wolfdreamer]: :o) you are part of our family, chris and mine

2005-11-08 [*cuddles*]: ooooooooooh ! i can`t beleeve you happened to me ..........finally .....................

2005-11-08 [wolfdreamer]: :o)....welcome to the family

2005-11-08 [*cuddles*]: hehe - i have a family - finally - i allways wanted to have one .........

2005-11-09 [Shooting Star Shadow]: hehehe nice but steffi they've always been family i mean if your on here your family

2005-11-09 [EmeraldGrizzly]: GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! I wanna speahish szee sponduli!

2005-11-09 [Shooting Star Shadow]: translation of what the insane psycho monkey said please

2005-11-09 [Amish Hammer]: ummm, as far as i can tell....sumthing about a spanish sea spoon

2005-11-09 [wolfdreamer]: spanish sea spoon?

2005-11-09 [Amish Hammer]: hey, i tried :D

2005-11-09 [wolfdreamer]: i was just asking.....i mean i thought you had an idea what it is lol

2005-11-09 [Amish Hammer]: nope, not really :D

2005-11-09 [Shooting Star Shadow]: hehehe it's messed up but works i guess

2005-11-09 [wolfdreamer]: i think matt just has to get one and tell us what he meant, but then i think he doesn't know himself

2005-11-09 [Amish Hammer]: well, it's always a possiblity that it had to do with the biog' dippleingy stoof....

2005-11-09 [wolfdreamer]: what?

2005-11-09 [Shooting Star Shadow]: i don't have a clue

2005-11-09 [wolfdreamer]: good at least i'm not the only one

2005-11-09 [Shooting Star Shadow]: hehe yeah

2005-11-09 [wolfdreamer]: so anyways.....how are you joshy?

2005-11-09 [Shooting Star Shadow]: im alright just kind of sore for some random reason that is unknown to myself like normal

2005-11-09 [wolfdreamer]: could just lay wrong during the night and some muscles get pulled because of that

2005-11-09 [Amish Hammer]: yeah, that happens a lot.

2005-11-09 [Shooting Star Shadow]: that quiet possible but it's werid becuz it just randomly happened

2005-11-10 [wolfdreamer]: it usually just happens randomly

2005-11-10 [Shooting Star Shadow]: yeah it's freaky and happened this morning

2005-11-10 [wolfdreamer]: i thought it happened yesterday?

2005-11-10 [Shooting Star Shadow]: no it happened last weekend and it happened this morning again

2005-11-11 [wolfdreamer]: oh i see, well maybe you should just strap yourself on the bed so you can't move lol

2005-11-11 [*cuddles*]: hello - get well "joshy"

2005-11-11 [wolfdreamer]: don't worry about him...he's gonna be fine

2005-11-11 [*cuddles*]: just wanted to be polite ....

2005-11-11 [wolfdreamer]: i know, but they are guys so you don't have to be polite, they can take it lol....right guys?

2005-11-11 [*cuddles*]: guys need to be petted

2005-11-11 [wolfdreamer]: really? so that is what i always did wrong and the reason for them running away then....ahh

2005-11-11 [*cuddles*]: oh stef you are the right person to say that....

2005-11-11 [wolfdreamer]: hehe i am, i had relationships that went wrong before, which i'm actually really happy about, but yeah....

2005-11-11 [*cuddles*]: doesn`t matter anymore - you found what you needed !!!!

2005-11-11 [wolfdreamer]: i needed a long time for that and had to go through a lot. i was in hell and not only one time. and i still go through pain everytime i have to say good bye to him, everytime i have to fall asleep and wake up without having him besides me. i payed for it well.

2005-11-11 [*cuddles*]: i am sorry ....... !!!!!!!!

2005-11-11 [*cuddles*]: but you know that you found him finally.....

2005-11-11 [Shooting Star Shadow]: ah she can be polite if she chooses steffi, and i shall be fine just normal issues i've got going on....and steffi your alot farther from hell then what you could be and i mean in time you'll get what you want

2005-11-11 [*cuddles*]: freeling better huh?

2005-11-11 [Shooting Star Shadow]: yeah some what bout as good as i can geet with this hell

2005-11-11 [wolfdreamer]: i didn't say that i'm in hell now, i was there.....my life is beginning to get better and better now, finally....and don't be sorry cuddles....just tried to tell you and everyone here that things can change and that you can find the one person and what you need

2005-11-11 [Shooting Star Shadow]: i know you can find someone just never truely sure when and where

2005-11-11 [*cuddles*]: hmmmmm

2005-11-11 [Shooting Star Shadow]: :P

2005-11-11 [*cuddles*]: well i better don`t say what i think bout this - a nowhere leading discussion will start,......

2005-11-11 [wolfdreamer]: exactly cause you know you are wrong with what you're thinking

2005-11-11 [*cuddles*]: no !

2005-11-11 [wolfdreamer]: now?

2005-11-11 [*cuddles*]: no i am not wrong with what i am thinking !

2005-11-11 [wolfdreamer]: ok tell us what you think and we discuss it

2005-11-11 [*cuddles*]: i just don`t think i can find someone - that`s all ...

2005-11-12 [EmeraldGrizzly]: There is someone for everyone- and they can and will be found.

2005-11-12 [Shooting Star Shadow]: uh oh -curls up and hides under a blanket- i know what happens next

2005-11-12 [EmeraldGrizzly]: What?

2005-11-12 [Amish Hammer]: geez, ya'll realize the last time any one of us talked about anything positve? i can't even remember. oh well, guess we all have our probs. just.... oh never mind. i quit, i quit it all. i wanna go home, this isn't where i belong. i belong home. this looks the same, but i don't think it is..........

2005-11-12 [*cuddles*]: someone for everyone ? no surely not !!!!!

2005-11-13 [Shooting Star Shadow]: i believe that there is just that they always don't find that one person

2005-11-13 [Amish Hammer]: i hold strong to the belief that there is someone out there willing to tolerate me. Why they do, well, that's a whole other story. :P

2005-11-13 [wolfdreamer]: thanks guys for telling her that, cause now she knows that i'm not the only one telling her the truth

2005-11-13 [EmeraldGrizzly]: I completly agree with drew and angel, there is someone

2005-11-13 [Shooting Star Shadow]: hehe yes just doesn't mean you'll find them but there is someone out there

2005-11-13 [EmeraldGrizzly]: Yap

2005-11-14 [~The Dreamer Ilaes~]: Well we'll convince you there is, but it's just like it's said above, its the chance, coincidence or oppotunity to find that someone thats the challenge. There outthere its just a case of finding them :D

2005-11-14 [wolfdreamer]: exactly....i mean they could also be right before you nose and you just don't see it or they live in some other country...who nose....sometimes its just dumb luck....believe me, i know what i'm talking about ;o)

2005-11-14 [~The Dreamer Ilaes~]: "begins to bow in worship" :-)

2005-11-14 [wolfdreamer]: well i hope she believes us now that 5 ppl told her that it is like that

2005-11-14 [Shooting Star Shadow]: hehe trust me i know from experience don't spend to much time look but do spend some on it

2005-11-14 [wolfdreamer]: ahm ok...joshy you are just weird

2005-11-15 [Shooting Star Shadow]: yay -bounces around- but sis who else would know this better then a loser that is constantly looking

2005-11-15 [wolfdreamer]: well how do you think i found chris? you will find that person it just takes a little bit longer sometimes

2005-11-15 [~The Dreamer Ilaes~]: I'm aiming roughly for when I'm 80 the way i'm going, but I guess like she said, it just takes time. "violin in the background"

2005-11-15 [wolfdreamer]: why are you ppl so negative?

2005-11-15 [Shooting Star Shadow]: im not negative i agree with you steffi that they will find someone just doesn't mean it has to be before your 20

2005-11-16 [*cuddles*]: well not negative - just not fooling myself at that point ....

2005-11-16 [*cuddles*]: you know - i have wondrfull friends (you know who is meant) and i think that should be enough for me...what more could i wish.?!

2005-11-16 [*cuddles*]: i am happy you found him stef !!!!!

2005-11-16 [*cuddles*]: thank you for trying to cheer me up ! but i think i keep my opinion.....maybee you`re right ... who knows ?! we`ll see

2005-11-16 [wolfdreamer]: ok to wchich one of those do you want an answer now?

2005-11-16 [EmeraldGrizzly]: Yeah CBT, your beginning o confuse me.

2005-11-17 [Amish Hammer]: ur confused? i don't even kno where i am.

2005-11-17 [*cuddles*]: answer to what you want ! by the way .you don`t have to answer.....confused huh - that`what i always am ....hugs you all ! hehe

2005-11-17 [Amish Hammer]: i thought i sounded confussed......

2005-11-17 [wolfdreamer]: nah she is....lol

2005-11-17 [Shooting Star Shadow]: hehe thats just randomly insane

2005-11-17 [wolfdreamer]: of course it is, what else do you expect?

2005-11-17 [Amish Hammer]: it's odd when one no longer expects sanity from the world.

2005-11-18 [Shooting Star Shadow]: hehe it's not odd it's reality

2005-11-18 [*cuddles*]: huh?

2005-11-18 [wolfdreamer]: yap, its reality that we are insane lol

2005-11-18 [*cuddles*]: hmmmm - i told ya this is not gonna lead us anywhere....- another topic ?!

2005-11-18 [Shooting Star Shadow]: thats the point of it i guess

2005-11-19 [Amish Hammer]: hmm another topic, let's talk about stuffed animals!

2005-11-19 [wolfdreamer]: stuffed animals? i have loads of dogs for stuffed animals as ppl in the states always got me some

2005-11-19 [Amish Hammer]: kool

2005-11-19 [Shooting Star Shadow]: hehe yeah stuffed animals are cool i guess

2005-11-19 [EmeraldGrizzly]: Kool? Nah, they are the shit.

2005-11-19 [wolfdreamer]: i think you only say that because you never got any and are jealous

2005-11-19 [Shooting Star Shadow]: hehe yeah thats probably it

2005-11-21 [wolfdreamer]: so nobody wants to talk about stuffed animals anymore huh? .....what about movies?

2005-11-21 [Shooting Star Shadow]: hehe idk whats the new harry like

2005-11-21 [wolfdreamer]: no idea didn't see it, have to ask cuddles

2005-11-21 [Amish Hammer]: matt saw it sat night.

2005-11-21 [wolfdreamer]: i see....well i'm not that much of a fan of it but i've heard it a lot darker then the other ones so, why not give it a shot?

2005-11-21 [Amish Hammer]: yeah, they had to take it to pg-13 this time, a lot of violence. matt said they changed it a lot, from the book i mean, but they still got the point across. he liked it.

2005-11-21 [Shooting Star Shadow]: hehe who cares if it follows the book i just want to see it

2005-11-21 [Amish Hammer]: u'll have that.

2005-11-21 [Shooting Star Shadow]: hehe we have alot

2005-11-22 [EmeraldGrizzly]: WHATTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I got plenty of Stuffed animals! I don' care how old someone is, they at least gots one!

2005-11-22 [wolfdreamer]: i have some at my place all the other ones are at my grandma's....still have my first one and i will keep that one

2005-11-22 [Shooting Star Shadow]: i've got a few but not as much as i'd like to

2005-11-22 [*cuddles*]: oh i just love them - every one i own has it`s own story....yesthe potter-movie is great it`s not that different from the book ...how are you all ? tell me tell me tell me.....hehe

2005-11-22 [Amish Hammer]: i am, that's about it.

2005-11-22 [Shooting Star Shadow]: hehe i am what i am and nothing but that

2005-11-22 [Amish Hammer]: whatever you say popeye :P

2005-11-22 [wolfdreamer]: i am what i am and i'm proud of it

2005-11-22 [Shooting Star Shadow]: yes if you don't like there to bad

2005-11-22 [wolfdreamer]: huh?

2005-11-22 [Shooting Star Shadow]: like i even know steffi

2005-11-22 [Amish Hammer]: whoda what???

2005-11-22 [Shooting Star Shadow]: i don't have a clue

2005-11-22 [wolfdreamer]: ok josh stop to confuse everyone

2005-11-22 [Shooting Star Shadow]: im not trying to

2005-11-22 [wolfdreamer]: are you sure? lol

2005-11-22 [Shooting Star Shadow]: yeah im not i've got no thrill in confusing people today

2005-11-22 [wolfdreamer]: oh sth wrong?

2005-11-22 [Shooting Star Shadow]: just that my mom is bitching about my grades and she told me to get out yesterday morning and now she is trying to say she didn't which is bull

2005-11-22 [wolfdreamer]: oh man that sucks

2005-11-22 [Shooting Star Shadow]: yeah it does so i pretty much have to find a place to stay

2005-11-22 [wolfdreamer]: she really wants to throw you out? because of your grades?

2005-11-22 [Shooting Star Shadow]: no she is throwing me out becuz i didn't feel go and so i wanted to stay home from school for a day